I called this "Breaking My Heart" because my heart was reminded of my past mistakes concerning a romantic issue I faced in my Christian life. Back then, I was a kid who had a reputation as a happy single. But by some turn of events, I've been made to realize that I was one of the weakest in this field. Thus, I hated being teased that concerned issues with the opposite sex. Flame and Shai Linne in "To My Heart" focused on its doctrinal issues.
The world would be surprised that Christians don't want to follow their hearts that do not have any desiring God. Why? Christians have a different principle regarding the heart.
Biblical figures know that the struggle with the heart is serious. King David, after admitting his sin against God when he knew Bathsheba and killed Uriah, shouted "Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me." (Psalm 51:10). But since Jeremiah 17:9 is the most famous definition of the heart, I focused there.
Though my life was changed I am staying alarmed
To fight all the sins that are waiting to harm
For my best defense is waging a war
All this time against the rage of my heart
That's right, on my part, it's the trickiest battle
To fight 'gainst my heart that's so slick and so subtle
And Satan's so smart he will use it to rattle
My faith, then he'll start to reduce it to rubble
You may argue that my view wouldn't seem right
Especially after hearing/reading this the first time
Let me share you how the heart has been defined
By Jeremiah chapter seventeen verse nine:
All of its desires are always evil
Desperately sick and is deceitful
All of us deny to know that it's sinful
Powers will trick us, though it's simple
So while the world says, "Follow your heart
Or forever hold your peace, then break apart."
Almighty Lord says, "Hollow your heart.
Obey my Word, lest you'll break apart."
It's hard to believe this message only
But let me proceed this with a story
Thus I will give my testimony;
How I'm deceived to mess His glory
I once thought I was glad with my singleness
And it's God who I have in my loneliness
But He showed that my head wasn't thinking this
Through a woman, in a moment, put me to a test
That time I gave way: in her eyes I have gazed
And then I, in this stage, filled my mind with her face
Dreamed her by night and day, put my Bible away
Then my parts went so grave that my heart went to crave
I showed my emotions through words and actions
I, for that reason, won her affection
But our motions of our attraction
Made us to treason all of God's sanctions
Know what? I became so dead in my grave
That my meditations stopped and decayed
While we're busy spraying sweet-nothing phrases
And didn't give the gracious God His due praises
I've no plan to escape: I didn't realize
That I have been caged by the Enemy's lies
But by His unseen grace He opened up my eyes
Through my loving brethren to bring me back to Christ
See that my fall was not an instant process
It started from the smallest bits and pieces
Until there's a wall between me and Jesus
My faith went to halt for obscene reasons
What's the result? I made that girl an idol
She rivaled God's title as I went idle
Worse than a cult that shared false gospels
I reviled the Bible's truths with my vilest possible moves
I'm also responsible for this: you see
I made her idolatrous; her god is me
I made her more focused to talk to me
Than to the Lord of Hosts; My blasphemy!
I've forgotten to think, see, and behold
The God who has beauty that none can hold
I've fallen so deep there in the hole
That I bogged down my body and my soul
I'm not willing to make this mistake again
And I'm warning you mates to escape this sin
It may harbor some aches and heartbreaks, my friends
But rewards will be great if you'll wait for Him
I'd rather bleed myself and die
Than further feed my heart with lies
I'll search for means so that my life
Is offered - pleasing sacrifice
I'm not saying that it's wrong to enter courtship
But flee from sin - it's God who deserves worship
But while my heart is aggressively weak
He'll be my guard till my death will be sweet
